Impossibly possible

It is crazy that sometimes nature brings to you someone who you would never imagine to get along with. Every possible way you look at them they seem to break all your laws of possibility. You can never imagine life with them but you get so close to them that you cannot imagine now a life without them. I don’t believe in perfection because it has confused me many times in my life. I believe in now. The now moments with this one is phenomenal. We love and we fight. We love to fight. We love to love. We love to just be weird. I always wanted someone who I could be myself with. I wanted someone who could complete me. I wanted someone who was simple yet intriguing. Someone, I could be crazy with. I loved this Valentine’s day. We started off with disagreement. My past had made this day so aversive. I just wanted to overlook and fast forward this day. But this one, he just simply changed it. Starting from a shopping spree, food at our go to restaurant and a Hookah lounge. Where he smoked and I relaxed with him feeling all so high. I can rely on him. I can tell him what I don’t like and he changes everything around for me. I see stars and the bright sunlight in the dark. He is my sunshine. Prayers that he won’t disappear and I would not lose interest in him. 😂😂😂😉😉😉

It is Official!!

On February 2, 2018 at 11 pm. I was left with no choice. :P :)

Thank God for that Friday!!!

The night started with me trying to figure out what to wear. A dress??!! A dress for bowling but who wears a dress for bowling. Well, I do!! I wore it. I got ready only to wait for him because he was late. I love our long drives on dark roads. I am actually really frightened of darkness but he brightens up everything. Our sense of humor clicks. I have never laughed so much in my life with one person. He has just changed everything for me. I am breaking so many of my own rules hanging out with me which I at one time thought was not possible. Well, I guess that is life. We came to the bowling alley and we started our crazy journey in his style. I was so myself and was not scared at all. I look forward to more of such nights.

Fictional Love Happens

I use to wonder sometimes why God makes you go through tough times. I felt, I knew the answer, however, you can only technically predict, and not know till you experience it yourself. Love for me was such an endearing word. It was so powerful. Every chick flick I watched, I lived it vicariously through the characters, as I was told it is unreal and a fictional fantasy. But God has His ways of making you experience life in a way you would never image. Everything, you would imagine that was unreal starts to happen in your life. You just get awestruck. Love that always seemed confining starts to feel liberating. I could be myself. Act my way. Speak independently and still feel that I care for someone. 

Dancing under the star and letting go of myself was becoming my reality. The love that I was discovering was discovering me in a liberating manner. :)

Our song!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Vv-BfVoq4g

Thank you for sending me this song. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hbe3CQamF8k

Connection

I'm still figuring out if resistance led me to a magical night. I was trying hard to hold myself back I was unaware where are my emotions and feelings were coming from. Were they coming from a recent turmoil in my life? I use to feel that it take years to get to know someone. But this connection proved  it all wrong. We recently got to know each other. But the communication seems to go so well. I don't stop myself from saying the most brutal and cruel things. He similarly don't hold back either. But we laugh unceasingly. Sarcasm and rebellion that I am best at, sometimes lead me into trouble.  However he seems to like it. I can be myself. I'm loving the freedom in a relationship that I am developing with this individual, so unique. The long drives, the silly laughter, the racist jokes and of course the passion.

Isn't it so amazing how someone tells you they respect the boundaries you have created. Isn't it so endearing how the boundaries does not hold individual's feelings towards you and they still want to connect anyway.

True connections develope true feelings.

Once Loved

Someone just told someone to move on. They want them to move on from the person they once loved.

I don't understand this move on business. How can you not love someone you once loved. If you ever truly loved someone the feeling always stay despite the fact, they  stay or not in your life. Their consistent unfaithfulness and infidelity makes you distant from them. You never  would go that route again. But love never changes and dies it stays strong.

When a current girlfriend tells an ex girlfriend to move on. You want to tell the girl that her dog was unleashed because if you knew that you were used to be cheated with, you would have never gone that route.

My theory is humans become history love does not.

 Moral of the story, for the ones who give advise to move on, to already moved on individuals, is to; Leash your dog! 😜

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I am so blessed to have family and friends who support me.

It takes courage to stand up for yourself and a blessing to know God is there with you. People who are right should not be scared of adversaries. The best things are support of crazy friends who find your craziness amusing. I am glad that I am honest, bold and true to myself. 

I cherish honesty and celebrate truthfulness. It revealed to me today that some people at their moment of honesty are not honest. It is scary that someone gets played by someone's manipulation in an act of sincerity and loyalty. When an individual starts deleting evidence. It shows their criminal mind and how scared they are of being caught. Education and grades don't show integrity of a person. Even when they become millionaires they won't have that peace and satisfaction of the criminal and manipulative mind. They write blogs, make videos to convince you and write emails to get to you and later deny every fact.

At the end who actually played a better part of sincerity and loyalty. Just internalize it and move on.