Rachel was an anxious person. When something worried her, it took much of her energy and she felt crippled. Any situation can trigger fears of unrealistic thoughts and those thoughts can led anyone to peseverate especially someone who is naturally anxious.
Rachel was once in love and the person she loved was apparently never invested in her as much as she was. My conclusion to Rachel's story was that it should have ended there and then. However, Rachel was blind in love. She never knew the real true story. Love does not come with percentages that you love me this percent and I will love you back this percent. Percentage is not love. It is a business. It is a need. It is a bargain. She was naive and never knew what she got herself into till the day came when she found that the person she was in love with was continuously cheating on her. He use to ask for forgiveness and get involved in another person. She found out about him through apparent evidences. She felt sad and hurt. She started developing anxiety due to this situation. They broke up. They separated. She lost the charm of believing in love. For her love was never a business deal or a bargain. It comprised of genuine feelings.
The guy she loved came back few years later. She never fell out of love because for her love was not a bargain or a business but the guy believed in certain bargaining business deals. When he figured the business deal or the behavioral economics of that relationship was not feasible he left again. By writing a note to the girl that the deal that he was trying did not happen and he has to leave and it is the end again.
The girl in few days had a dream of the same guy cheating on her again which made her angry and upset. Her dreams had come true previously. Thinking about the dream and previous events made her angry. It hurt her and triggered her anxiety and fear. She felt angry of why the guy ever cheated and why she deserved it. Why the guy came back and planned this business and bargain deal which if it won't work he will leave again. Why he feels it is convenient for him to come and go....
Even after all what happened he wanted her not to react. On her immediate reaction, he taunt and criticize her for being not mentally and physically stable. What a great source of comforting guy he was, who internalizes his depression and anxiety and used other ways to satisfy him.
Criticized Rachel for her mental stability which she was aware of.
An amazing love story about anxiety!!
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