From Him to Me

I love you like I've never loved someone before.
You're so fun and exciting I never know what you've got in store.
When I'm holding you in my arms it's an indescribable feeling.
Your innocence and charm has the power of healing.
I never want you to think that you could be replaced.
I've walked down life's lonely roads so I know the hustles and chase.
There is no one like you here, there, or anywhere.
You are a treasure that is beyond rare, and I swear to you my love, I'll always be there.

Because you are YOU!!

I’m sitting here thinking of a life that I’m looking forward to spend with you. I’m just not sure what life is going to bring our way. But as I look into the tunnel I don’t see the real light on the other side of the tunnel. I just keep on thinking whether I will ever see that light. Then I see that light radiating from you. I love you but sometimes I’m so scared that things won’t work out the way I want them to. I have to believe in God because He Almighty is an integral part of our relationship. I have to believe in you because I know God loves me and He gave you to me. I have to believe in God to show me the light in the darkness because you are there. I see rainbow and you happen to be the reason I see the colors in it. You let me fly and soar to the heights beyond the skies. I see myself swimming in the waters. I swim fast and I swim deep because you liberate me with the constant courage. I think God put you in my life for a reason. I’m so glad everything happens for a reason. You change the world for me and I love you a lot. I want that obsessive and crazy love from your side. I want you to always make sure that I don’t cry because you are you and you... and you are there.

It all started to stay.... once upon a time!! 

It is been a year that I am with him. He is the sweetest person I have met. However, may be I am comparing him to my past. 😉 Love is such a difficult emotion. You never know what is love. You don’t know when you are in it and you can’t figure out how you can be out of it. This story of love began without any planning. We were enemies who loved to tease each other and then one day when I felt my world is falling apart he came and started to fix everything. My brokenness was healed with his brokenness because I knew someone was trying to understand on the basis of empathy. I am glad I met him. I prayed for a loyal, honest and sincere guy. I have a feeling I got one. Jesus things have never gone my way. I hope with time. Even though things don’t go my way give me patience and love so I understand love. Love that is faithful. Love that is loyal. Love that is patient.

May glory be given to God and may our anniversary make us stronger to celebrate together in love the next year. May God be given all the glory and may God help us to understand each other’s language of love. Amen

Stalking or Browsing

I was discussing with one of my friends about how two of my colleagues were stalking or browsing a previous employee’s Facebook page. I shared that how one person was sitting and the other person was standing and I passed by after dropping something in the mail. One of the individuals looked at me as she saw a ghost. However, the other person did not react and stayed calm. 

Anyways, my friend’s perspective was interesting. He said that what if they were just talking to each other and the page was just open. It could be because that previous employee must have posted something in general or related to his previous job. He said that may be it was a coincidence that two colleagues were standing talking to each other  and the page was just posted there. I told him about the controversial post of the previous colleague a week and a half back. He said that may be that was it. 

He said that not always everything is stalking sometimes it is browsing too or sometimes it is both browsing and stalking at the same time. 

But my last concern whether social media should be open constantly during work hours. 

Reality Bites Everyone

Being labeled as  conceited, cocky, arrogant, jealous and insecure is weird, as you cannot group them together. It is interesting that perception about one person changes based on environment and their relationship with other individuals. 

Recently, I have observed that people around me perceive me as jealous and insecure, however they also seem to think that I am cocky and conceited simutaneously. In retrospection, based on individuals labeling I analyzed my childhood and teenage years when I was not only encouraged to be better than others but almost punished or criticized when compared to my peers if I was not good or not better than them in studies, talents and skill sets.  Now that the idea has taken such a strong hold in my brain of comparison I feel the need to compete. However, what sometimes frustrates me is my grouping with people who I don’t feel a fair comparison to. I don’t know why God puts me in that predicament where I feel compelled to compare myself with people who are so different from me and not a competition. 

Ultimately admitting, I do have some kind of arrogance which frustrates me when people state  that people they compare to me are in my tier. 

Arrogance comes with hard work and persistence. Compared to mediocre ready to be picked up individuals. It just don’t seem right. 

In conclusion, I read this quote today, “Good girls go to heaven, bad girls go everywhere” that led me to question myself, should I compare myself to a good girl who goes to heaven or to a bad girl who goes anywhere with random anyone. Is that even a comparison?? 

Russell Peters

On August 18, 2018 I went to a show to see Russell Peters. It was one of the gifts for someone special for his upcoming birthday.

Russell always brings new idea and enlightens me. Have you ever observed that you are sometimes so use to your culture and segments of it, that it would not feel weird to you. Things you have done for years or said for years would seem normal. Even things that your parents say to you would seem  to be a fact. I never thought that I was not allowed to have my opinion till recently. I could never make a decision and feel secure about it because I always thought that I would make a mistake. Making a decision and failing does not make your ability to make a decision invalid. It actually makes you feel that you did it on your way. Listening in a humorous way from Russell made me think how I take things for granted. Even now and then my ability to make decision was taken for granted. The process of understanding seems a journey and I still feel I am in a process not at a destination yet.